Emotions

Yesterday, Chad and I were talking about how quickly the past year has gone. We have almost been in North Carolina for a year. The day was a relaxed day, we packed some for our 7th move as a married couple (in 4 years!), we hung out together and did things around the house. Overall a good day.

However, that night as I was trying to drift off to sleep I kept thinking about the past year...then it hit me and the tears began to fall. You see, yesterday was June 22nd and last year that was the day that we found out that I had a miscarriage and we would not be having a baby. That was the worst day of my life. I didn't cry yesterday because I was still grieving and upset at God and wishing it had never happened. I cried yesterday because I remembered the pain. I know that God has a plan and for that baby the plan was to be with Jesus quicker than I had anticipated. I now know that if we had that baby we wouldn't be having this one now...and when I look at the pictures (in the previous post) I know that God's plan for this baby is to be raised by Chad and I!

It was an interesting set of emotions as I remembered the pain of losing my first child, I was at the same time, feeling this new life in me kick and squirm. It was sadness and joy all at once, difficult to figure out and to handle.

I am so thankful that my Lord and Savior has my life figured out because I don't. I'm blessed beyond belief to be carrying this baby now. I am more than thankful to have a loving Heavenly Father who has plans for me and who holds me through the rough times and laughs with me through the joyful times.

God is Awesome!

At our last doctor visit we had an ultrasound. The technician and the Dr. thought there was a cyst in our son's head. Which they both assured us is common and should go away in the next couple months. Because of that we had another ultrasound at this appointment on Tuesday. The technician could find NO cyst and believed that the other technician just had a funny angle...I don't really care what happened, just that it's not there now! Thanks to God, Baby Burns is healthy, as far as we can tell!

Chad and I were rather happy to be able to see him again, he grew a lot in the past 4 weeks! Once again he was all squirming around during the ultrasound and it was super fun to feel him move and see him move on the screen at the same time! And at one point I'm pretty sure that he head-butted the ultrasound wand thing! That's my little boy! He also gave us a wave and we saw his tiny fingers. He even started to suck his thumb at one point...so fun!

I'm also healthy and having a normal pregnancy, which I'm finding out doesn't mean that its an easy pregnancy. Since I'm so short...5'1" (and maybe a half inch) , my organs are really getting squished...so I'm having "normal" pains with things like digestion! So much fun! But as long as it's normal there's really nothing to do, but endure it. I just keep reminding myself that it's temporary and in the end I will have an amazing little guy to love and raise with my husband!

Here are some pictures of Baby Burns at 22 weeks!

Profile: can you see his nose, lips and chin?

Chubby little foot!

Kicking and punching!

I forgot in my last post to put my happy news! Chad felt the baby move a few days ago and has felt him move several times now. I'm so happy to be able to share this with him. My mom has tried to feel it a few times, but hasn't happened yet.

Also, today I sitting in my chair at work and felt some kicking and looked at my belly and saw it move! I haven't seen it before so I was pretty excited!

It always brightens my day to feel my son move! I can't wait to see him!

Definitely a Monday!

This was my Monday...and it all happened before lunch!

*I had a scratched contact...didn't feel so great. My mom had to rescue me and bring me a new contact at work!

*I got overwhelmed...my parents and Chad and I are moving in the next 3ish weeks. And there is a lot to pack while keeping the house clean enough to be shown to potential buyers!

*I have almost none stop phone calls from the time my butt hit the chair. One consisted of a mean customer and him calling me a not nice word all because I asked a question!

Finally lunch came...now I'm just trying to make it through the rest of the day so I can go home and relax a little.

We have a baby Dr. appointment tomorrow and I'm looking forward to that! And after the appointment will be packing!

I will post our new address when we move.

3 dogs - 1 dog = 2 dogs

Currently we have 3 dogs in our house (picture is of them all napping)...and all are inside dogs (NC is not cool enough for outside dogs in my opinion). For those of you who don't know...Chad and I live with my parents ...don't feel sorry for us because it works out great and it's actually a lot of fun!

We have Snoops, the very old black and white bassett hound. She is the family dog that my family got as a puppy a long time ago. She sleeps a lot and doesn't do much else!

We have Sammy, the little brown Pugle (mix between a Pug and a Beagle). He was given to my parents for them to find him a good home. The previous owners moved and couldn't take him with them. He's been with my parents for a while now. He plays/irriatates the other dog Morgan.

We have Morgan, the brindle and white Basenji/something mix. She is Chad and my dog who moved out here with us from Oregon. She will tolerate Snoops as long as Snoops is sleeping. She will play with Sammy on her terms and growl at Sammy the rest of the time.

Well, we finally found Sammy a great home! He will be going to live with Brian soon. Brian is the most awesome Scottish man I have ever met. He is a bit older than my parents. He met my dad at a cigar shop and my dad and him became good friends. The few times that Brian has been over for dinner he has mentioned that he'd like to get a small dog. His miniature schnauzer died a year or two ago. He has also fallen in love with Sammy. So we all decided that we should give Sammy to him. I really think this will be good for everyone. Sammy will get to be the top dog, since there aren't any other dogs at Brian's house. Brian will let Sammy up on the furniture and I know that Brian will love Sammy like crazy! Plus, Snoops won't have to share a bed with Sammy anymore. And Morgan will be less stressed out, since she is very territorial and Sammy likes to steal her toys and food...which leads to dog fighting! I'm looking forward to hearing how sammy takes to his new home and owner...I think it's a perfect match!

So very soon our house will become a 2 dog house and Brian will have the joy of a dog again!

The Dog!

The third post in one day I'm on a roll! Well, this is an update on our silly dog, Morgan! Recently she has been getting up during the night and going into the other room to sleep on the Papasan Chair (you know those big round funky bamboo chairs with the big cushions). Yesterday we moved the chair. The new placement of the chair is in a place where Morgan can't see the door or the window, she used to be able to see both. It is my speculation that she isn't very happy with this. Last night, she got up as usual to go to the chair and then she came back to our bed and whined at me. I invited her onto the bed and she jumped up...no big deal. But then at some point between the whining time and the time I got up to use the restroom (which happens once or twice a night now) she had gotten off the bed and spread the bathroom trash all over the hallway. So when I got up to use the restroom I had the wonderful surprise of floss and tissue all over the hall. Lucky me, I got to clean it all up. I went back to bed hoping to get another 30 minutes of sleep...but no. Morgan was whining and the sun was too bright...so no sleep was going to happen. I got up and started my day!

I really do love Morgan, she is a great dog...but she's a little quirky! Maybe God is trying to show me what it is going to be like with a kid! Anyway that was the start to my day...of course I'll go home tonight after work and Morgan will be there all excited and doing her wiggle wiggle grunt dance (some of you know that dance!) and that big goofball dog will brighten my day and snuggle and play with me!

Funny onesies!

The day we found out that we were going to have a boy we did a little shopping. We didn't buy these, but thought they were funny!

"My mom's a fox"

"If you think I'm cute, you should see my Daddy"